~_6....kerisauan ku....ble tgok ank angkt ku...AKOP...bermain dgn bunga....wah....risau....6_6

wah...kerisauan.....terkejut ble tgok ank angkt aq men ngn bunge....gler r........aq gsau gler.....gsau yg teramat sgt........syg sgt akop aq tu.....mle rsau ngn kelakuan dy....wakakakaka......jgn dy jd lembut cm sotong dh...jgn dy hati cm girl..masak aq nk ajar dy jd bdk laki yg ksar....bab ksar...xpe...aq leh ajar...wakakakaka...koz aq pon ksar.....

6_^....dia rama2...aq rumah.....happy...9_^

rumah aq nyer...aq simpan....dy lak rama2.....cz aq ske tgok rama2......n ske lukis umh....xtau r dy prsan or x......myb x kot...wakakakaka....smlm stu ae dy xmsj smpi r dy gtau dy dh trme pictre ni.....aq xgtau yg aq smpan umh...aq hntq email jer...wakakakakaka.....ske cm 2...wakakakaka...pe pon....hope sgt2 dy jge bnde ni bebik.....cz de mkne yg tersirat kt c2.....wakakakaka...hpy sgt2...skli pg td dy kol...wah...at berbunge2.....aq ckp..aq rndu dy....dy leh gelak jer......dy pn lpe g skli....xiqamah g.....aq bt xtau je.....dh xnk dh pkse2...bia dy ingt sndri....myb dy byk sgt nk pk slen pk bnde2 yg aq suh dy bt...wakakakaka...pe2 je r.....yg pnting hapy n bahgia.....SMOGE AQ BERBAHGIA SELALU.....insya-ALLAH....amin.....

~_~...ae kerinduan...~_~

2 5.jun.2011.....stu ae aq rndu dy....dy bz sgt2....smpi xde mse mjs ngn aq....tp aq tetp nk msj ngn dy...nk tau pe dy bt.......ae ni aq skit pn dy xtau....xnk gtau dy....t dy rsau....bik diam je.....slgi aq leh tngung....slgi 2 r aq b'than......rse lemah sgt2 mgu ni....bdn mnd ar pns pn trse pnat g........pnat tu x hlng g....bengkak2 kt bdn mkin trok lak.....nk g urut xleh.....mkck tu bru bt knduri kwen lak....mgu dpn r jwbnyer aq b'urut.....rse nk tdo jer...tdo jer bdn ni dpt rse sgt2 rlex..........sgt2 xskit...tdo ngn tenang.......adus.......skit ni cpt r kua dr bdn ni....xsngup dh.......xnk dh rse cm ni....xske....sume jd serba x kne.......xske.......smge aq dpt mersai ketenangan yg bik dan happy cm sllu kelak....amin......

::masak....masak...makan...sedap...puas ati......wakakakakaka::

ae ni msak ngn adq adh...kne bt list tuk bhan2 msakan....nk bljr msak r kata kn...wakakakaka...nk msak pn kne tgok bku g.....owng tgh bljr r katakn...tbe2 teringt lak.....cm cte FULLHOUSE.....nk nsk je tgok menu kt internet...tp aq lak....ske tgok bku je...mtk mnu kt owng len.....pas2 bt bku....wakakakakakakank msk je...kuar kn bku....wakakakaka........smpi ble r aq leh msk tgok bku...wakakakakaka....plan2 kayuh...lme2 t ok r tu.......bse2 kn dlu........wakakakakaka......smge aq xcpt gve up tuk bljr msak......hehehehe....smge aq nyer msakn sntse sedap....amin.....

::sakit bdan ni.....skit yg bt aq sgt2 sad....::

smlm adq tka aq skit....lbh trok dr ae len......sgt2 xsngup tgok g....smpi ble pkre ni nk jdi....smpi ble.....aq pn xtau.....ble pk ni sume....aq mle pk...npe ni sume jd kt fmly aq....ble ujian ni nk hbs....ble ujian ni nk slsai...mmg fmly aq byk sbo ngn ujian ni.....aq pn leh b'sbo g.....tp tiap kli ubtkn dy...mst bdn ku dpt efect......slre mkn hlng....bdn letih...rse nk tdo je....sume kje jd perlahan...move aq pn jd slow....bia pn aq cbe brkuat......tp aq tetp lemah dlm adk2 b'adk aq....owng nmpk aq ksar...tp aq lah yg plng lmah......nmpk ksar n kuat....tu je yg mmpu aq bt agr x d pndng lemah....aq nk sume pkre aq leh bt....tpi aq seowng yg lemah sbnr nye.......sob2...aq xske ble dri aq ni jd lemah....sakit jgk ....antre pkre yg aq xske sgt2....tpi apakn dye....sume akn ku hdpinye ngn sbar dan redo...sb2 ni nk g bt test DNA again.....huish......bpe r vrus dlm bdn ni agknyer....skit dan trus skit.....smge sume ujian yg aq lalui ni slsai dgn bik....aq sngup hdpi ujian ni klu d permudhkan....slesai ngn bik....smge d ae aq menunaikn tngung jwbku yg terakhr sbg umat ISLAM(menunaikn haji).....sgle urusan b'jln ngn lncar......xde aib yg b'laku kelak...i.ALLAH....amin.....smge hajt ku dpenuhi dan ALLAH makbulkn hjat ku ni....AMIN.....aq nk g hji ngn suami ku yg tersyg...I.ALLAH...AMIN.......

::mmg d tkdirkn ae ni aq ngis...pas stu musibah dtg...dtg g musibah.....ujian yg d berikn pd aq sgt2 bsar......smge aq jd lbih tabah...::

ae ni aq dh r sad...mak bebelkn aq pg2 ae....mgok lpo....mlm ni lak...tgh g psar mlm...trme lak brte kematian sowng dtuk sdre aq...stu g kematian......aq rse sad sgt2....cm ar mte ni xleh g nk than dr gugur.....mmg agk nyer bln ni...bln ar mte bg aq.....bru ngis smlm...ae ni ngis lgi......xsngup dh nk ngis....mte ni dh mle bengkak yg melmpau......sat g nk mnd....tenangkn dri.......sjukkn at ni....mte ni....tpi...aq rse...aq g r ngis kt dlm blik ar tu......argh....xsngup dh....Ya ALLAH....aq mhonn ko cptkn proses membersihkn dri ni.....aq rndu tuk membaca kitab yg Kau trun kn.....aq perlukn ayt2 tu....aq xtenang....hnye dgn ayt2 kitabMU...aq rse ketenanganyer.....Amin......xsngup dh...d saat aq hdapi kesedihan ni...hnye aq sowng je yg hdpinye....cz aq xleh nk share ngn spe2 lg....xde spe g leh aq ngdu......cz syg ku jgk aq dh xsngup nk ngdu ngn dy....cz aq xnk dh....berat rse nye tuk share pkre ni ngn dy....cz aq akn dimrhi jgk......bia r aq yg hdpi ni sume....smge aq dpt hdpi ni sume ngn tabah.......smge TUHAN bersme aq.......jgn tngalkn aq dgn prsaan ni....hnye ketenangan yg aq ingin kan......penat dri ni mengalirkan ar mte yg xtertngung oleh at ni......jauhi aq dri bisikan Syaitan Ya ALLAH....smge ENGKAU bersamaku.......amin....

::penantian aq sehrian dpn notebook ku....kecewa...:"(...::

lme sgt......smpi dh bosan dok dpn ntebook ni......lme sgt tgu...menanti dan terus menanti......siap sidai bju...g cuci gmbq tuk nenek angkt.....g print kertas kje adk tka.....ae ni lak mgok lapar ngn mk...ngjuk ngn mk....xnk mkn...cz mk asyik membebel je...mls mkn...ar susu fullcream penaman perut ku...lpor sgt2....tp xnk mkn yg mk msak...ngjuk......lpo....tngu email berblas...bt aq rse g sad ae ni.......ae sgt2 sad.......cm2 tmpe.......last2 ambk keputusan suh dy on blog dy n blas email.....kne bls ae ni jgk......xkre.....nk ae ni jgk........tp klu dy suh tgu g....aq tgu je.....tgu je lah ble dy nk bg jwpn.......bse dh bab tngu menunggu ni....last2 t aq jd penunggu.....wakakakakaka.......ae ni lmbt lak mlm......g bersemangat nk mkn kt psar mlm......lpo sgt2.....lpo sgt.........ble nk mlm....nk bli sume yg de....nk mkn bebyk.......sok pn nk ngjuk ngn mk...smpi lik umh swe.....ngjuk ngn mk....xnk mkn lauk mk..xnk tapau lauk lagi.....

aq nk ngis.....tp bln ni byk sgt ngis....mte sgt2 letih tuk ngis.....hmpir stiap mgu ni aq ngis......bln ngis aq ke mgu ni.........tpi mmg xptd d nafikn mmg aq byk ngis....byk sgt aq pk bln ni......ble nk dri ni nk hbs wk2 ni......rndu ngn ayt2 AL-QURAN.....rindu nk bce.....nk pegang AL-QURAN......rse tenang ble dpt pegang n bce.......:)...

::sore d tngi kt aq::"tengah serabut ni...::ayt yg aq skit ble dgr::salah aq cz gngu dy::

ae ni syg ku de prob....aq lak sibuk2 nk kol dy....dy dh ckp dy de prob kje dy...tp aq kol dy cz aq nk tau dy dh stel or x prob dy....2 pn slah ke?????aq xtau lak yg tu pn salah.......tpi aq g sad ble dy ckp...."tpon len r.......tgh srabut ni...xtau nk ckp pe....".....aq benci.....aq xske ayt 2....xske sgt2......dy bt aq rse aq kne tolak ke tepi.......mmg r serabut....tp kne tenang....aq dh trse....so bg msj kt dy.....suh mnd...solt n doa...agr sume stel ngn cre bik....dgn mudah....smge jmpe lik key yg hlng tu.....smge owng yg terambil or terjumpe pulangkan lik key tu.....amin......smge nye berada dlm keadaan bik...insya-ALLAH....aq rse sad sgt ble pk lik...aq trus bsuh kete mak...mnd lme2....cz xnk pk kn 2 sume.....xnk pk pe2 g....xnk dh sad....xske jd sad....kesihatan terjejas ble sad.....byk mse aq luangkn ngn fmly ae ni...mkn sme2...bt kje yg leh bt lpe kn pe yg aq pk kkt dy.....aq xnk pk yg aq mrh kn dy...aq xnk pk tu sume............aq maafkn dy....tu je jln penyelesaian bt dy...........dy de mslah...aq xkn ngdu kt dy tuk mrh2 or ngjuk2 ngn dy...t yg terbik bt mse ni.....aq akn bg dy mse.....bg dy mse lbh bgus.....bik tuk kmi ber2 jgk....xpe je dy xb'sme aq stu ae ni....aq pham situasi dy....smge ko sllu tenang syg.....aq pn bkn ketenangan dy...mke aq doakn smge aq jdi ketenangan bt dy kelak...amin...insya-ALLAH....HOPE SO...:"(....

::sok nk masak2 ngn adk adh.....best....ske lik umh cz leh men masak2.....::

seronok sgt2.......dpt lik kg...leh msk2.....ske msk2 ngn adh....sronok ble mskn kte msk sedap...best......ske mkn....ske tgok owng mkn....best......hehehehehe....xsbar rse nyer nk msk yg len2....nk sgt bljr msak skrang..... msk sume nyer...wakakaka...aq ske bbq....lgi best klu leh bt n spent mse ngn famly....ble g r nk bbq ngn fmly....xde port best g...t r...nk usha kt tmpat2 yg best.....pas2 leh msk2...nk msk2 byk2........mkn byk2....wakakakaka....ble r nk gmok.....waakkkkaaaaa....pe pon...seronok dpt bljr masak......t nk bljr masak asampedas melaka...wakakakakaka...tp sush r.....tp xpe...nk 1000 dye...xnk sejuta alsan.....berusaha jihad...menuju kejayaan msak....yes....dh mle ske msk2....best....:)...happy jgk...:)

ae ni gnap sudah 2mngu habibi xcm dlu g....dy dh len....xcm dlu.....myb dy dh fade up kot ngn perangai aq yg pelik ni......em....hbs nk bt cm ne.......aq yg bt salah...so aq kne trme.......aq pn stu...lg2 nk bt dy skit at...tpi...bkn slah aq....ati aq dh terdetik nk ckp 2 sume....cz aq ni mmg ske ikt pe at ckp....cz at aq xpnh salah....dlu aq rse seronok je b'bork ngn dy...tp skung......cm dh kurng je feeling dy kt aq...so aq xleh nk salahkn dy......skung ni.....pe nk jd...jdi r....slgi aq syg dy....slgi tu aq akn doa dy tuk aq.....andai dy xde jdoh ngn aq stlh aq b'doa....aq redo......aq doakn dy temu wanita yg lbih bik dri aq......agr wnita tu leh jd kn kehidupan dy lbih bik dan gembira....bt dy rse senang dan bahgia...amin....2 yg penting.......bia at aq yg skit...bkn dy...cz aq yg sllu cri masalah...mke aq akn hdapi sume nyer....bkn dy yg kne hdpi tu sume...bia aq je yg tngung......pe pn.....smge aq yg sllu pk xelok dan -ve ni....cpt berubah...buang sume sikap ni secpt mungkin dri diri aq ni.....aq akn cbbe pk +ve....aq akn try......2 mgu ni jgk dy xperasan yg dy dh x iqamah tuk aq g......aq sje xgtau dy...dy xperasan.....sbuh pn dh 3x dy tngal...cz aq xdpt nk kjut dy...tp smpi ble dy nk suh aq kjut dy....btul kate owng....xsnng nk ubh owng....so aq bkn nyer nk ubh dy pe pn....just aq nk dy jd seowng leh bimbing aq n fmly aq kelak.......so...aq xtau nk gne cre pe g ngn dy ni....xtau dh......pas ni.....bia r dy yg bt keputusan dy....dy nk berubah atau tdk....aq dh xleh nk mrh2.....xleh nk ckp pe2 g.....dy je yg leh ubh dri dy....aq xde hk nk ubh dy.....smge dy cpt berubah......kepd kebaikan....amin....Ya Allah....smge ENGKAU lembutkan ati kekasih hati ku ini...amin......

::kerisauan aq mkin merunsingkan at ni....::

smlm DEAR kol aq jgk pas aq msj jgn kol.....aq letih...penat cz menolong kje dpo time knduri....smlm gak de bce artikal tntg percintaan....mle nyer best....dh sepruh jln...aq dh mle sad......aq dh mle gsau....cter yg aq bce ni kne kt aq ker....aq truskn bcaan aq....kesedihan mkin memuncak...."pang"....mmg kne sbjik kt mke aq......aq sad.....sgt2.....artikal ni memang tntg kerisauan aq slme ni dgn DEAR....aq tkut sgt...... ketakotan yg amt aq tkuti.......aq cte ngn DEAR...Dear ckp...dy kn de je....tpi aq ngis.....aq ngis g ngn dy...aq ckp yg aq tgh de rsau...aq rsau sgt2.....aq yg t'llu pk or mmg ptt aq pk kn....aq pn xtau.....aq tdo dlm ngis...hti sad sgt ble pk Dear.....aq tnye dy...klu aq xde jdoh ngn dy....dy izinkn kehdiran wanita lain x kelak.....dy ckp...tak...aq lebih risau....rsau dgn kata2 dy...terlalu kah kmi syg menyayangi antre stu sme lain????aq tkut tuk kehilangan dear....kerisauan ni hnye disirami oleh doa.....hnye doa yg aq mhon.....hnye doa leh mengurangkn kerisauan aq....hnye doa penguat hbungan kmi....de part doa aq tuk dear aq....yg m'btkn ar mte ku berguguran...."andai dy bkn untuk ku.....maka temukan jdoh untuknye yg lbih bik dr ku agr dy bhgia tuk slmenye......"...hnye itu doa terakhr ku....penutup doa ku.....tiada lgi doa penutup lain lgi...hnye tu doa bt ko DEAR.....PENUTUP SEGALA DOA HARIAN KU.....aq syg ko sgt2 dear......sgt2...UHIBBUKAFILLAH......

::ae cukur jambul ank kcil pkck sdre ku.....Qulah amni::

seronok sgt....ae ni bt majlis kenduri cukur jambul kt umah nek ngah serkam timur......QULAH AMNI nme baby tu...comel....bulat mate nyer...keturunan Siam lah katakan....comel sgt mke dy.....diam je sepanjang majlis berlangsung.....xnagis pun.....bgus baby tu....tpi tpu r dy xde ngis...ngis skli skle jgak.......tpi dy ni jns ske ckap......ske tgok mlut dy n sore dy yg blas kte nyer ckp....cm dy paham je pe kte ckp....sme dy menyampuk......yg aq xleh blah......dh nk lik bru persan dy de lesung pipit.....lgi r b'tambah comel dy dpn aq.....aq pn penat gak.....join owng 2a....menolong kate owng......rse cm nk ptah pinggang ni....tpi happy sgt2........dpt tgk baby yg cute.......mkck2 sume say Thanks.....kt aq n adk2 cz menolong.....mk xde...so kmi wakil.....ae kje r kate kn.......sempat mkck2 tnye aq ble nk kwen.....aq ckp lambat ag.....blom mse nyer ag...mkck aq gelak je.....aq pn join r....bab kwen mmg aq xnk pk ag......blom ready...setakat pgang bby2 owng leh r...aq lom ready g nk bergelar istri...cz aq tau aq byk kekurngan ag....byk kne bljr.....byk...tpi yg penting.....ae ni mmg best...best sgt2....ske sgt2....

::ae ni cuace suam2 ku2....xpns xhjn.....smpi bosan menghadap notebook::

stu ae aq rse bosn...fb memnjang.....bosan sgt.....dh xde bnde len nk bt pas sume kje slsai.....bosan2....pe g nk bt....tls diry dh....tgk sume vdeo dh...sgle2 nye....dh....pe g nk bt??????aq pn xtau.....tdo pon dh.................nk bt pe.........

hpy sgt..smpi ar mte kegmbiraan yg kuar....ske sgt2.....syg kol.....ske sgt2....hpy sgt2....xt'hnge.......jujur nye...aq syg dy gle2.....n dy pn syg aq.....aq ske sgt2......gmbre......bia pn ae ni dr pg smpi r dy kol...ae sad aq...wakakakaka...aq bhgia smle....hapy sgt2......syg sgt2......rndu sgt2.....ae senja aq jd indh......kesalahan ku d mafkn....2 yg pnting.......smge aq x ulngi skp smlm g..jauhi aq dr skp 2 g.....xnk dh....no push2 owng g..xelok...dyh pn mrh......abey mrh...sume mrh ngn pkre yg aq mtk dr dy....aq sad sowng2 je.....cz yg len mrh aq....my dyri je teman aq...nsb bik de sowng yg teman(dairi ku)...hapy sgt2.....

aq lh yg jdkn bnde ni sume t'jd.......akhrnye...dy leh bt keputusan tegas spt yg aq hrapkn......bia pn aq rse skt....tp aq dh b'jye bt dy tegas dgn kptusan dy......aq ske dy jd tegas cm 2....cz 2 yg aq nk dr dy...jd insan yg tegas dgn kptusan dy.......bkn jd insan yg sering mengalah pd aq......aq xske.....bt mse ni....wjud tembok antre aq & dy....aq yg bne tembok 2....aq sering bt tembok 2...b'sebab aq bt tembok 2.....byk hkum Tuhan aq dh lngar.....byk hkum Islam yg aq lngar...dgn cre ni je aq leh mengurngkn dose aq &dy...aq sntse b'doa...agr Tuhan mengampuni dose2 kmi....b'dose aq....aq hnya mampu berdoa dan terus berdoa agr jdoh aq &dy lbh kuat kelak.......spt :: Sabda Rasulullah

S.A.W..."dunia adlh sesuatu yg segar dan manis,Allah melantik kamu sbg khalifah untuk melihat sejauh mana kamu boleh lakukan.Takutilah fitnah yang ada pada dunia dan takutilah fitnah yang ada pada wanita.sesunguhnye fitnah pertama bg Bani Israel ialah wanita."-Hadis riwayat Muslim.....::skrng ni....hnye doa mengiringi perhbungan aq &dy.....bia xb'hbung....tp aq b'hrap doa dy turut mengiringi perhbungan aq &dy.......hnya DOA yg aq leh hrap kn...tiada yg lbh hebat slen dr doa.....Smge kputusan yg aq bt ni betul.....Maf kn aq SAYANG......semoga jdoh aq &ko b'pnjngan......smoga kte kecapi kebahgiaan dunia & akhirat kelak.....I.ALLAH......amin.....

:::__""__keyakinan aq makin berkurang__""__:::

cm kt pictre ni gak.....pictre love yg d lukis ats psir kt tpi laut....tngu mse je.....ble dtg ar laut.....hlng lah love 2......cm 2 perasaan aq....keyakinan aq de kt tpi2 ar laut 2....tgu mse tuk d bersihkan je.....keyakinan aq dh x cm dlu g.....aq dh mle risau....keliru dgn perasaan aq sndri.....pe yg aq hrap kn....pe yg aq nk...aq dh kusut......xbrrni g ltk hrapan yg meninggi lg......hrpan aq hnye aq yg tau pttutnye......tp aq sndri yg keliru ngn perasaan aq.....aq kcau dgn hati aq......keyakinan aq mkin menurun....turun dn trus menurun....aq xseyakin cm dlu lg.........keyakinan aq dh jtuh thap ZerO.....keyakinan aq dhlri jauh dr aq............sgt sush bg aq ble keyakinan aq dh hilang......jauh dri aq.........sgt sush........aq xsngup......aq hrp keyakinan ku dtg semula....dtg menemani aq....jd kn aq seyakin dlu........jdikn aq seyakin dlu....aq hnye perlukan keyakinan aq semula.......blik semula mendekati aq.........temani aq yg kebigungan.....buangkan segala kerisauan aq......aq perlukn keyakinan ku spt dlu......keyakinan dtglah menemani aq......